What do you do when you’re lonely and yet you still know that you are right where you’re supposed to be?
I broke up with my boyfriend a few months ago and it’s weird. I did the breaking part, but we dated on and off for over 2 years and not having him in my life is not like what I expected. Yeah, it was great at first, but I don’t think I realized how non-practical emotions can be. Maybe I just miss the idea of him.
Most of what I’m thinking is, “get over it and move on with your life”. But that’s just it. This is my life. Right now, these are the things I’m dealing with. So instead of pushing the feelings away or doing something else that’s dumb, I acknowledged how I felt. I reveled in it. And it wasn’t so bad. It kind of felt like a relief, like I had been waiting for myself to realize that this was how I felt and now I could continue the healing part.
That’s what you got when you stood over your [feelings], facing them finally. A sense of its depths, its area, the distance across, and the way over or around it, whichever you chose in the end.
-The Truth About Forever
I’ve always been bad at feelings. I am the master at putting on a face and making people believe I’m okay. But I don’t want to live like that anymore, and I don’t think you should live like that either. With time, holes do get smaller–like when you get your ear pierced and then let the hole grow back. Not to say that boys are earrings, but you get my point. Time is a healer, but if you don’t face your feelings there will always be a scab, that one thing that blocks the hole from fully closing. Never be afraid to talk to a close friend or family or a therapist, because facing the messy stuff is a key step in overcoming it. And this applies to everything, not just my boy problems! If you need someone to talk to I am always available to chat, via twitter or tumblr, no matter how small or big your problem is.
Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
And not gonna lie, after I sat there and just felt, I went to the fridge and ate a bowl of ice cream. A girls gotta cope somehow! And I also bought a fish. He’s adorable. But seriously, after you get your feelings out there, DO SOMETHING about it. Go hang out with your friends, go to the gym, the pool, to work, write in a journal, go on a walk, do a craft, because this is your life and do you really want to spend all of it trapped inside your head? You are a fabulous, sexy human being who isn’t held captive by negative emotions–we can do this.