You and The Mountain

I search for you on the wind

the wind shimmering up the west peak

the mountain exhales snow in bursts of white

until I stand alone waiting for the avalanche

he brushes my cheek and it’s ice

I am not standing there anymore

You are the avalanche

the snow the mountain breathes

in and I fall into your

sharp ice embrace

until all that is left of me is you

and the mountain breathes


Coffee Overkill

When people talk about being an addict the first thing I usually think of is alcoholism or drugs or cigarettes, you know, the serious stuff. But caffeine can also be an addictive substance–it is classified as a stimulant drug. I never really gave much thought to how much caffeine (Read: coffee) I consumed in a day until I read the daily prompt from a few days ago: What is the one word or phrase that immediately cheers you up when you hear it? My first thought was, Starbucks. Not only is that marketing at its finest, but I then thought about how many cups I drink on average in a week. [Side note: I usually make  coffee  with my french press, I don’t only get coffee from Starbucks].

One in the morning, one with lunch, and one in the afternoon. Three. And that’s not including if I take an extra shot of espresso with my coffee.

So how much caffeine is that?  According to google there are 95mg of caffeine in one cup f coffee and 64mg of caffeine in one shot of espresso. On average I take one cup of coffee with a shot of espresso a day, that’s seven shots of espresso a week, plus the other three cups of coffee. So to break it down in totals: Per Day=349mg, Per Week=2,443mg (2.4 grams). That is a lot of caffeine.

Now, I’m not going to quit caffeine cold turkey forever because that’s just silly. Caffeine helps relieve headaches, boosts energy (for the short-term), increases metabolism, improves cognition and researchers at John Hopkins have found that it helps improve long-term memory. However, too much caffeine is not good for the long-term as the withdrawal symptoms are brutal. I learned this first hand from the pounding migraines, lethargy and overall grumpiness. It can also induce tremors, especially if you drink it on an empty stomach as well as possibly increasing your risk of stroke, but the jury seems to still be out on that one.

I don’t want to need caffeine to function as a human being–to me that is one of the definitions of addiction. I should be able to function throughout the day without it. Plus, one of my favorite mottos is everything in moderation. I don’t think 2,443mg of caffeine counts as moderation.

In light of this, and wanting to be an overall healthier person, I’ve decided to limit myself to one cup of coffee a day, sans espresso. Instead of coffee in the morning, I’m going to eat breakfast. What a strange idea. Hopefully the withdrawal blues won’t hit too hard, but since I’m not going cold turkey I don’t expect them to.

So here’s to a summer of fruit smoothies and roasted brussel sprouts, a decrease in coffee and an increase in self-discipline.

If you have any suggestions or anecdotes to share, please leave them in the comments and any and all encouragement is greatly appreciated! Have a great week, bloggers!

To My Younger Self, With Love


That's me on the left!
That’s me on the left #tbt
  1. Stand up for yourself, you are worth it.
  2. Expand your music tastes, there is so much out there
  3. Being weird is what makes you, you, embrace it
  4. Your parents are super heroes, but you don’t need to agree with them on everything
  5. Ohana means family and family never gets left behind or forgotten.
  6. Don’t settle for things you’re not sure about
  7. “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
  8. Don’t let things happen to you, be an active member of your life
  9. Touch the butt
  10. You cannot be everyone’s psychiatrist
  11. Fight for joy, especially when it’s hard to find
  12. Never be ashamed of saying no. You don’t want to, end of story.
  13. Wear things that make you feel good
  14. Don’t get sucked in by those people who just want to argue a point. You don’t need to agree with them just to make them stop talking. Walk away.
  15. Real friends. You’ll know them when you meet them.
  16. Self-confidence starts with you
  17. You are cool in your own way, I swear
  18. Don’t let people persuade you out of your opinions
  19. You will not have a room at home once you go to college. Prepare accordingly.
  20. Play your music loud, it sounds better that way
  21. Frozen is coming and you will love it
  22. Grades are important, but not the most important
  23. Life is nothing like any movie you’ve ever seen, but sometimes boys will kiss you in the rain
  24. If someone makes you feel small, leave
  25. Own what makes you happy
  26. Stick to your guns
  27. Growth is usually a good thing, but the process hurts
  28. You are a wonderful human being who adds so many things to the world, you must never let go of that
  29. “Take up more space as a woman. Displease. Disappoint. Destroy. Be loud, be righteous, be messy. Do not see yourself like glass. Like you could get dirty and clean. You are flesh. You are not constant. You change.” -Mehreen Kasana